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Effluvium From Sonya's Brain, LiveJournal Edition

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Seeing Signs of Life
Clouds, Logo, Head, Shades
sonyalynn
And from the ashes...Hi, everyone out there in Internet-land. I know it's been a while since you heard from me. Long enough that I actually had to clean some cobwebs off this bad boy, even (though goodness knows how they managed to latch on to a bunch of pixels).

Well, what can I say? The post-part-time depression got really bad after my brother's lovely wedding down in Baja and I started losing enthiusiasm for pretty much everything. The only things keeping me going were my regular gym attendance, Chasing Amy events, Lost, and my hardest of hard-core friends, like Deborah, Dana, Gina, et al.

So it got bad. Really bad. But, at the risk of sounding like a bad sports clich, I didn't give up. Once I gave up the delusion that I was was bursting with motivation and entrepreneurial spirit enough to actually start my own business, I started looking for a proper job in earnest. And I got one. This was the "Important Stuff" I was nattering on about in my Twitter feed, for those of you who happen to follow that.

As of this past May 26, I'm the new Mac Server Goddess at Eaton & Associates and so far, I'm loving it. The people are great, the clients are varied and interesting, and it looks a lot like I'll end up making substantially more than I did previously after figuring in their "profit-sharing" bonus plan.

So that's one of a few things that have been keeping me massively busy since I found out I would get the job. Obviously, I had to get my old employer all buttoned down and school my replacement, for starters. Then I had a whirlwind weekend including a day and night at BayCon and something else I'll be getting to soon enough. (I really should also post a separate piece on my BayCon experience. Believe it or not, after a lifetime of geekery, it was actually my first time attending a major con.)

BTW, going from depressed to the point of permasloth to getting up at 6:30 every "school day" and scurrying hither and yon pretty much instantaneously has been a jolt that my system really hasn't adjusted to fully.

There have also been changes of seismic proportions in my personal life. I've met not one, but two wonderful women who've really helped me kick aside the last remnants of The Tale of Woe which has dominated my personal life for about 3 of the last 3.5 years. In chronological order, they are Melanie and Amy.

I met Melanie at the home of a mutual friend and was already fascinated by her before I realized she doesn't live locally. In another, earlier time both the distance and a certain shared characteristic would have caused me to give up interest then and there even though she and I have more chemistry than I expect is strictly healthy. But she does come steaming through here every couple-few months and tells me she's trying to find a way to get out here to stay. Needless to say, I'm doing everything within my power to help with this immigration project even if it isn't a whole hell of a lot. I like this picture of her in her goth-princess finery!

Of course, once I have such a thing as disposable income again, she gives me a reason to go back to Jolly Old for the first time since 1990. Always meant to go back...

And then, at a recent Chasing Amy event I met Amy. But not the Amy who runs it. (Though that Amy, aka Ms. Kitty, is like buttah, dahhhling!) I mean this Amy. I've been spending every spare moment I can with her (and sometimes her lovely fiance, John, too. Ain't polyamory grand?) and as a result have had emotions woken up in me that I hadn't properly felt in my whole post-op life...emotions I was really starting to wonder whether or not I'd ever feel again. And, again, she's someone I might have looked past not that very long ago precisely because of the perfectly lovely fellow she's going to marry. Doesn't make her any the less into me, though goodness alone knows why. (But I'm not gonna question my good fortune!)

The net result of all of the above is that I've been experiencing a curious phenomenon: Happiness.

Now I just need to learn how to adjust to these new rhythms of life, making time for work, play, home, and everything else. Consequently, I propose slowing the rotation of the Earth to create a 25-hour day and its orbit around the sun to allow for 8-day weeks.

And, oh yeah, I still need to find more time to write in these very pages. I have ideas for posts that have been stewing for weeks and hopefully haven't gone past their "use by" date.

But, to all my friends, family, and assorted loved ones, thank you THANK YOU THANK YOU! for putting up with me while I lingered in The Pit of Ultimate Darkness. I can't imagine I've been a while hell of a lot of fun to be around.

Hugs to you all and *happy little sighs.*

I sleep now!

Originally published at Effluvium from Sonya's Brain.



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I am so glad to hear that you.re in a happy spot in your life now,
HUGS! We still need to go to lunch sometime

Have a great weekend

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